spring break.

i wish i had lots of cute pictures for you all today but sadly that hasn't happened yet. they will be coming shortly i promise. this post is going to be really random. hold on to your seats kids. first off, spring break has been wonderful. i've been sitting outside reading Heaven Is Here by Stephanie Nielson (Nie Nie) and man it is amazing. i've thought of how sometimes i think life is so hard but this book has made me realize i can do anything if she can get through the emotional and physical pain of being burned over 80 percent of her body. along with sitting outside has come some really nice tan lines and a few sunburns. it feels so good. skin cancer may be in my future. woops. along with that i went to the jazz game and spent all day tuesday and city creek with my family. city creek is heaven. its only missing an Anthropologie and no worries that's coming in the fall. i want to work there. anyway. its been a great spring break. things to come include taking pictures, being outside, pedicure with my mom, long talks to hannah, a clogging competition and many other things.

next tangent. for a while now my knee has been really sore and just hurting. a lot. that's really not a good thing because clogging is my life and with a bad knee it would all be over. so we decided to be safe and get it looked at. so last week i went into the doctors who took an x ray and then talked about the different things it could be. of course they used really big and scary terms and i sat on the bed trying not to cry. he told me my bones looked good but i should really consider an MRI. so i went down stairs and had to lay really still in HUGE hospital clothes while i was put into this tube thing. it was kinda of interesting, really loud, and gave me lots of time to think. (that will be part of the next tangent) they told me to come back on monday and they would have the results. so monday came and i went in. however i spent much of sunday night praying and crying to my heavenly father that it would not be something that would require me having to stop clogging and that my knee was just tired. peace overwhelmed me. during the end of summer i must admit i thought no one was listening when i prayed. i was frustrated by it but when fall came i had great experiences and i know now that my heavenly father is always listening. so as i walked into the office monday i took a seat on that table and the doctor came in and explained what he could see through the MRI. he mentioned how its 90 percent accurate but saw that everything looked good and they could only see some inflammation that will go away through physical therapy. i could have kissed that man. i was so relieved that it wasn't something horrible i had done to my knee. and i could still clog.

next tangent. i have had lots of time to think lately and like most people i think about how my life would be if i didn't do this or that or if this wouldn't have happened etc. and part of that is why i made my challenge. i feel like i am in a good place in my life but that doesn't mean i'm just going to try and freeze it all. if this is how good my life can be right now image what it can be like if i am striving for other things and setting goals for myself that i know i can achieve. now i have missed my taco amigo and all those other things haven't been easy but i feel like i'm doing okay with it. but i know i could do better. i need to work and push myself. i think about a quote that i heard once that went something like.. if you knew the potential you held image what could become of you. well im going to find that and see just what i find of myself. and you know what, im really excited about it. yesterday while i was thinking of all of this i received an email from a friend that made my entire day. she said some very very kind words and i didnt even know how to thank her for how much all of that meant. and it made me think about if i was to send a random note of thank you or just a simple text to someone how much it might help and mean to them. so that's something i'm going to do too.

next tangent. im really excited for summer. the first week of it i'm going to st george and vegas with my family/friends and some many other fun plans. except that means i will be starting at BYU. when your a little girl you always think of how life is going to go and how you just wish you were all grown up, well right now i wish i was that little 9 year old girl dreaming of what lays ahead. it's going to be so hard. but putting that all aside i'm really excited about all the opportunities it will bring. and i hope i get to go study abroad and go to third world countries to help and serve them.

there is a church song that says count your many blessings and name them one by one. as i think about that right now its almost overwhelming and i feel like the luckiest girl in the world. i have so many new friends, ive grown so much, my mom and me talk like we are best best friends and i love it more than anything, i feel comfortable in my own skin, and over all life is just good. i love the days when i feel like this. and what could be better than listening to mumford and sons while writing this all? thank you all for the little things you have done for me that have helped more than you know. much love my friends.