the power of music and words.

i'm sure you have heard these two phrases many times: there are power in words. music has a special way of expressing an emotion.

sometimes when i write on this blog i wonder how other people will read it. as weird as this sounds i want them/you to feel how i feel when I'm writing. i want them/you to know how important, passionate, etc. i am about the things i write about. i know i'm not an amazing writer and that my grammar is at a level of a solid zero but i do love to write. so i'm going to try a little something. you can play by the rules or just read along it's really up to you.

before i talk about something i'll have a song before the paragraph (youtube video) press play on the video then keep reading. it's as simple as that. maybe this will work and maybe it won't but i'm going to try it. it'll be sad, funny, and hopefully a little inspirational or something.

here we go:

have you ever sat you in your bed really late into the night and reflected on all the things that have happened in the last six months, year, week, etc. and wondered where time has gone and just cried? or maybe even laugh at a memory that was completely stupid but for some reason that night you couldn't stop laughing about it? and you think about the boy or that girl or your best friend and miss them. you feel like sometimes no one understands and you would do anything to go back and live that time all over again? i guess its true when people say you don't know what you have until it's gone. but thats why you have to live in each moment and make the most of it. now you could decide to sit in that bed and cry and never let yourself move on or you could remember all those things with a smile and i'm not saying push away those feelings, let yourself feel, but remember to smile. at one hard time in my life my whole family was gathered around and my grandma was talking about how hard it was that my grandpa had died and she found a little note in her scriptures that said "don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened" that has been my motto and now when things happen i decide to make the most of it instead of thinking too much or whatever i usually do and let me tell you it's lead to a much happier me. bad things still happen but it means there is still a whole lot of good to come.

this christmas break was amazing. one of the best i will say. i worked a lot, spent time with friends, and enjoyed every second of being with my family. we went to a cabin in Heber where all the Idaho family came in as well and played our christmas game and played dance central until late into the night, watched incredible sunsets, and then on sunday it was just the henderson clan of eight. we sang to my parents for their anniversary and just talked. it was lovely. time much needed. other than that i've just mostly been working. a lot. it's a good thing i love the girls i work with and how much fun we have together. it's awesome. my friends are great too. we didn't do anything crazy this break. but spent late late nights watching movies, playing wackee six or commotion, going to temple square, and probably many other things i am forgetting but it was so nice having a break from school and just being able to hang out. all those boys will be leaving soon for the mission. i'm sure going to miss them. i've been living at home for the break. back in my room which i was in when i was little. it's funny to see all the little pictures and trophies and seeing how far i have come. i really love living at home. it's nice. i don't have to wait for the cannon to be open to get food. my mom makes amazing meals and its just nice to be home. really nice. i'm going to miss it actually. but i guess thats the thing we all have to get used to. new homes and stuff. at least i will have one to always come back to.

 for a while now i have been trying to decide what i'm going to do with my life. i know what career i want to go into, pretty sure about my degree, and everything like that but i want to do more. ever since i was little i have wanted to travel the world. even if it meant i had to live out of a suitcase for the rest of my life! i love seeing new places, learning how people live in different places around the world and everything that goes a long with that. but ever since that whole mission announcement i have had no idea what i am going to do. missions are great great things. and so i started really praying to know if that is what i'm supposed to do and never really got an answer. i'm not going to lie it's been really really hard. so i decided to talk to my brother and my mom about it. as we talked my brother decided to read me one of his favorite scriptures. and the feeling i got while he was reading was just what i was looking for. so where will i be going next? well i have a few different things in mind. i really want to learn a language or get better with spanish, i want to go help kids in orphanages, maybe do a study abroad in europe. you best believe i will be saving all my money and pennies. because i'm going to be seeing the world. and helping people. but as far as a mission goes.. well maybe that will happen a little later. i guess we will just have to see how things go! thank goodness for supporting family. and a wonderful, much needed christmas break.

thanks for reading. now you try!

much love.