update.

first of all can we all just take a moment to look at how cute my new blog is? take a look around. find out all about me, do a little stalking ya know. i really didn't do anything to make it look like this but little miss madeline worked her magic and i love it! and her.

so along with the new and updated blog i thought i would give a little update on my life because i feel like so much has changed and though sometimes i still have no idea what i'm doing i'm getting there. kind of.

first: i have figured out school. better yet i will be done by august 2016 at the latest! i can't tell you how good that feels to think about. i'm going to go into manufacturing engineering just like my dad did. i've already taken all the math (praises) and i am basically done with all my generals. miracles do happen people.

second: i dyed my hair. it wasn't planned actually. i thought i was going to get highlights but when i sat down i just wanted darker hair. so that's what we did. now at first it was pretty dark. but now it's faded and some blonde is showing through and i love it. i think my mom was the most shocked. haha. surprise! no more blonde. but let's be real i'll probably go back in the summer because there really is nothing better than blonde hair, tan skin, and the warm sun. is it june yet? i'm ready to go on some adventures.

third: i have a new sister-in-law! the wedding was on January 17th and it was actually pretty great weather for January. it was a beautiful wedding. they had crepes and hot chocolate for their reception which i thought was awesome. katie and kyle put together the most perfect song about little things about trevor and his very particular personality haha. then trevor played a song he wrote for steph on the piano. he's always been a charmer. 

fourth(& fifth): i have started crocheting and love it so much. particularly because of a certain boy taught me how on a date. and i guess that's the fifth. a new boy who makes me laugh real hard, crochets me hats, is unreal at disco skating, and is pretty great.

it's been a pretty crazy couple of weeks. but life is good and i am a very blessed girl to have the friends and family i have.

thanks for stopping by.

life hits hard.

you know those moments in life where it's like, "woah wasn't expecting that one!" life just seems to throw you a perfect curve ball that hits you square in the face. you want to thank life for the warning except it never gave you one so you're kind of offended but then just like magic you suddenly see how perfect that curve ball was and even though it hit you in the face you're grateful because you probably would have struck out anyways if it didn't?

well i hate baseball but that right there was basically my last two weeks of living. i've met some new peeps, decided i have no idea what i'm doing with school, started teaching another clogging class, etc. now when i write it all out i laugh at myself like "really? that's it? that's what hit you in the face?" well if you know me you know i always have a plan. and if things don't go quite accordingly i kind of freak.

college is a funny thing. there are thousands of people walking around attending different classes that will most likely effect everything else they do in life. some have it all figured out and some really have no idea. well i used to be one of those "i know exactly what i want to do and what i will do with it and etc." but this week as i was taking a math test (yes a test on the first week of school, death right?) i thought to myself what am i doing? is this really something i want to do? i had a little "come to jesus" moment with myself right there in the testing center (i don't recommend doing this in the testing center) and then i finished my test, walked to my friends office and shed some tears about how i no longer knew what i was going to do in school and i had no plan. zero.

so i have spent all day looking at different classes that i should take to just my generals out of the way while i figure out what in the world i'm going to do. and i have spent the last few drives to different places, walking from class to class, and down time having a little battle in my head. i again laughed at myself thinking about how people driving or walking by me must think i'm crazy because my facial expressions i'm sure were quite classic. after i had thought about all my worries with school, family, and just life i happened to come across the most perfect quote, "you don't have to have it all figured out to move forward." GOLD PEOPLE. pure gold.

so what did i do? i went to lunch with my most favorite person and best friend, my mom. if you don't know her you're missing out because she's the most loving, caring, stylish mom ever. i told her all my worries and updated her on the happenings in my life and she just listened and at the end made sure i knew she loved me no matter what. she's really great at that.

where does this leave me? i have no idea. ha! what?! crazy. i'm so not used to not having a plan but i already am feeling way better about life. like a light feather. so for all of you out there that may happen to stumble across this styleless blog, written by a girl who no longer has a plan and if you are rowing in the same boat remember it's okay not to have it all figured out all of the time and that curve balls can actually be quite the blessing.

also: i can't wait for summer.

much love,

jan